I'm writing this book based upon how I dealt with my own childhood trauma and how it affected every aspect of my life growing up. I allowed evil to dominate and control my entire childhood, never experiencing normalcy or a healthy lifestyle. My entire childhood was robbed from me. I always prayed and begged God to save me or take me home with him. I expressed myself very aggressively in certain parts of my book. I experienced physical, sexual, and emotional abuse that impacted my life negatively for many years. This is how I coped using vulgar and inappropriate language toward the beast, never vocalizing or expressed my hurt, pain, and fear. I always internalized my inner deepest thoughts. I felt like when I called him all kind of filthy names helped me cope some. My mouth was getting out of hand if he only knew how I really felt, only asking God deep inside myself, "Why, God, do I speak this way?" I knew it was wrong. However, it gave me great relief to call him the worst names, knowing I was dealing with a crazed animal.

My first book talks about a toddler learning survival skills at an early age of three and wondering if I would live another day. The abuse continued into my mid-teenage years. But the sexual, physical, and emotional abuse stopped because he was gone. The years of abuse affected me deep into my early twenties. I am writing this book to inform you that I am a survivor of a horrific case of child abuse. These tragedies I want to share with others of how I survived! My story is to be shared with any reader who wants to read about a child that endured years of torment and torture. My message is to empower any victim that suffered from abuse in their lives and help them move forward. I'm writing to help inform others of how abuse affects a child or anyone. Never allow evil to over triumph God and love!