With a military father, an unhappy mother, and a loving grandmother, Terry grows up wondering where she fits in, especially when she feels that she should have been born a boy and not a girl. Her turbulent relationship with her mother only fuels her desire to withdraw and find answers to the questions that torment her.

In the midst of it all, she strives to keep peace in a family deteriorating from divorce.

But the loss of her grandmother at the age of ten changes the direction of her life. Terry struggles with her faith, wondering how God could have taken away the most prolific person in her life. She self appoints herself as protector of both younger siblings also being targeted by another relative as well. Questioning when will it all end?